A Thankful Mommy

We keep seeing God's blessings!

>> Friday, January 21, 2011

In so many ways we keep seeing God's blessings in our life.

We're thankful my hubby has a job in the economy like it is.

Our children are healthy as are we.

It's below freezing here but we're managing not to run up the gas bill. God has been pulling me deeper and deeper into His word.

We are continuing to have our Bible during school and led by Daddy at night which has been awesome!

We're just so blessed and so thankful!

How are you being blessed right now?

Smiles,

Peace that surpasses Understanding - The Blessing.

>> Tuesday, January 18, 2011

We are to have peace that surpasses understanding.

It is such a blessing because we can have peace just in trusting Jesus for all our needs, our futures, and everything in the present.

We can cast our cares on Him and not look back.

Is He already aware of our cares? YES!

However, through prayer, we are to give those concerns or worries over to Him. He is in charge of the world that He created so He can definitely take on our burdens and we can take on His peace that He has given to us that is such a huge blessing!

I hope that every day of my life I sing His praises and cast my cares upon Him who is more than capable instead of carrying them in worry in my hands and on my mind because I can do nothing to change them. I hope that when the time comes that I DO try to take things in my own hands that God will gently remind me where they belong.

May God bless you and your family and me and mine as we daily start afresh and cast our worries upon Him.

As my friend, Melissa, said - His yoke is much easier to carry.

That's Biblical - I've read it myself.

Praises to God!

Be Transformed.

>> Sunday, January 16, 2011

Today at church, our sermon was about being transformed.

Being transformed as we are first saved, then growing, then down the line having Christ at heart at most all times... being Christ centered. We want our hearts and our bodies and minds to be reformed, transformed to be more Christ like.

Something I've been realizing is that I work for the package so hard. I try to do and say and live all the things that would glorify God but I often do not ask God to help me in doing this. I often do not invite Him to help me do this. I feel I should do it because I am a Christian. I should do it - but I have to remember to invite God to be part of it and tho I ask Him to lead me... so often I focus on the ways of the Lord instead of the Lord. Clear as mud?

I guess I am just realizing that I can't do it all on my own, I need to ask the Saviour to do it through me and help me.

With love,

Why do I not feel pretty?

>> Saturday, January 15, 2011

Melissa, my friend, commented to me about why I do not feel pretty. So, I'm thinking outloud here and maybe I will get some feedback that helps as well.

Hmm.. well, it starts that I was a size double zero and weighed 97 lbs during my first pregnancy. I lost enough of the weight that the baby, Hope, was born Feb 1st and by Easter I was wearing a size Small tee shirt. I have pictures is why I know - it was a band tee shirt. One I had worn before pregnancy and I had on some shorts.

My first husband (yes, I'm divorced - my husband chose another woman while we were married and even as I begged he filed for divorce) used to tell me I was "obese" when I weighed 136 lbs and was a size 5 or 7 depending on fluctuation. So, I felt obese. He was young and I do not blame him for any of this. I'm just making observations of why I might feel this way.

Of course his choosing another woman who was running 3 miles a day and had a very small waistline didn't help. (yes, he brought her to my house not telling me it was her after we had seperated, later I figured it out and a family member slipped to confirm.) OK, again, not blaming him - just another hit to my feelings on my looks.

I grew up feeling I was very beautiful because I was so tiny. Everyone in my family on Mom's side is thin. My sisters are all skinny. I was the skinniest one and now I weigh more than each of them does by measure.

In myself, I guess I am realizing that I may base my "pretty" or "not pretty" on my weight. I do not judge others on their weight tho. That is weird. I need to lose weight right now and so at this point I disgust myself. I don't like to look in a mirror and I hate trying on clothes. I feel angry and disappointed in myself. I feel like a failure and I feel like the ugly duckling.

My husband thinks I am "gorgeous, beautiful."

I just don't believe that and feel he wants to make me feel good.

Boy, maybe I shouldn't even be writing this post.

It's not "encouraging" and it's showing a very deep inner part of me I like to keep very hidden.

I know beauty is skin deep. I know it's not what's on the outside that counts. I know all those things. But for me, towards myself - IT MATTERS.

I guess what I need to do to feel "pretty" again is just lose the weight.

I'm sure this is more than anyone wanted to read.

This is the most transparent it gets.

Tears are surging down my face now.

Anyone else ever felt this way?

Just Me.

>> Friday, January 14, 2011

Just Me. Tonight.

I wanted a new picture so my hubby grabbed one of me sitting at my laptop tonight. No make up or anything. Just Me.

Snow in Texas??? Yes Sir Ree!!

>> Monday, January 10, 2011

The funny thing is that the day before the snow, my hubby had been telling me about how people raise money for the Olympics by jumping into the below freezing ocean at different places. He went in first with his feet, this his knees. It was sooooooo cold! He kept saying how good it felt when he got out within minutes or less it felt like a deep tissue massage. Yes, he talked me into it - can you believe That?!?! So my first time I went in to my knees. (had to top him by going deeper first, lol) I got out and sure enough the tingles stopped and my muscles relaxed and it was awesome! So next time around I jumped into the pool all the way. (yes had to top him again! LOL) Then he did. It was fun and it did relax our muscles.

....now the next day... Snow?!?!? Whaaat?

Yes, Seriously. In Texas!

So the girls had some major fun!

I let the two oldest go out just to feel the snow before Dad got home just so they could feel the snow because I was sure it would stop at any moment.

LoL at the fountain going in the pool with the snow all around!

Three excited little girls about the SNOW!

Cuties in the snow!!! I was waiting for Daddy to get home before we bundled up Hannah to take her out there and to let the kids play in it. Tho, they did throw a few tiny snow balls at each other.

..then Daddy got home and I got Hannah bundled up while the other two were busy getting all bundled up to go out and play in it!